Tuesday is the day I weight myself. Once a week so I don’t get consumed with the numbers. This Tuesday the scale said I lost a total of 15lbs so far. I think most people would be happy with that number but I felt a tinge of sadness. I had expected more. I always expect more from myself.
There have been moments through this process when I questioned why I was doing it. Why am I sacrificing great food, cooking elaborate meals, drinking coffee? Just to look good? Is being thin that important? Shouldn’t I just live my life, enjoying every day especially when it includes a pastry from Termini Bros. If you aren’t from Philly you may not know about Termini Bros. Look it up, trust me, you’ll thank me one day.
Let’s be honest the questions are just me looking for an excuse to cheat. We all know the truth. Taking care of yourself and eating healthy is the number one way to enjoy life more abundantly. The cheese fries can’t do that for you. Bad food is a temporary fix to a permanent problem. We search for comfort in things that will bring it to us quickly. If you are like me then you have been down this road. I can recall many times where I convinced myself a cheeseburger would make me feel better. And it did for a few seconds. But every time without fail, about 2 mins after I finish it, I’m struck with enormous guilt and feel terrible for eating it. So in the end it didn’t make me feel better at all. Yet the pattern continues. That is until you stop it – dead in its tracks.
I’m pretty sure that most everything we choose to do in life is a result of how we feel about our self. Over eating, eating for comfort, stress eating are really just our primal defense mechanisms. It’s a gigantic catch 22. We need to feel better so we look for a quick fix that will result in us feeling worse. Working on the permanent fix would feel great all the way around. Yet we don’t go that way until we are pushed.
Let’s end the madness people … Here’s to breaking the cycle!